SJ#072225
Having a full-time job is similar to having children. Aside from a child being an actual full-time job, they both provide an immediate sense of purpose or sense of accomplishing something without having to think about it. It gives a baseline value to your existence. Now that I have neither, it is something I will need to monitor.
I should keep a list of things I’ve achieved or how I provided value every day, like a Have-Done list. Then I could go back and peruse the things I have actually accomplished. On some random podcast over the years, I heard someone say one of their daily goals or maybe even life’s goal was to either make his wife happy every day or make his wife’s life easier or better. I feel like I strive for this without keeping it at the forefront of conscious decision making. But it wouldn’t hurt to proclaim it and make greater strides to ensure it gets done.
“If a man could have half of his wishes, he would double his troubles.” -Benjamin Franklin
Obtaining my wish of not working full time has not yet increased my troubles, but I still enjoy that quote.
It truly is easier on the mind to get through work when you don’t have to go back the next day. I have completely adapted to the idea of not going to work. Having to work 3 days next week sounds like a real drag. It feels like a two non-consecutive days work week will be my ideal target. I was asked if I could work Thursday this week and respectfully declined. I guess that means I really am not concerned about finances. Plus, I was looking forward to having 5 work shifts on one paycheck since that would make it easy to see what my actual minimum shifts per month I am seeking will actually bring in.
My biggest concern so far is struggling to decide on what to work on and when. Granted, I have not had much time on my own or off at home yet. I think I have too many projects on my list and can’t shake the feeling that I don’t have time to do them all. This time thing even on an off day goes by way too fast. Maybe it is the 2 hours at the gym followed by the additional hour it takes to prep and eat a salad. That’s half the day right there when you add in a dog walk and occasional human walk. Fortunately, the gym and salads are definitely a part of my perfect life plan, so I’ll just need to do better with the remaining part of the day. And it’s that attitude there that makes it feel like I can’t squander any part of the day. Anywho, this is going to turn into sleepy babbling soon.